Review: Keep Her

Keep Her by Faith Andrews
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

3 ⭐⭐⭐ - OK decent reads.
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“Beck, we need a break.”

One minute I was asking her to move in and the next minute we were taking a break. A break—I felt like fucking Ross and Rachel from Friends, but I couldn’t laugh about it because the idea of it being over with Marissa yanked at my heart.

Shit! Why was I thinking these things about my best friend’s sister? Why was I thinking these things about someone other than Marissa? Why?

Shit! What the fuck was I doing? I was in love with another woman, even if things were a little messy right now.

Was I starved? No, not really, but there was something about getting that taste—that sexy, addicting, fucking glorious taste—of something I’d desired from afar, that was out of reach, the impossible victory. Shit, it felt like I’d just won the fucking lottery.

I hated having to be on guard in this moment, but I guess that was the nature of cheating. Even though Marissa wasn’t technically my girlfriend anymore. I just couldn’t help feeling like a scumbag anyway.

There was no denying, after that first time, I felt like a home-wrecking whore. But Beck helped me believe it wasn’t me who was at fault. Yes, I’d slept with him knowing his situation, but there was obviously something wrong in his relationship with Marissa if he was willing to go through with it.

I couldn’t help feeling so cheap at that moment.

“I don’t want to talk about her with you, but you should know Marissa and I are on a break.”

I wasn’t the cheating kind, and even though it wasn’t technically cheating, I wouldn’t have been so quick to jump in someone else’s bed if I didn’t have my own doubts about my future with Marissa.

But I just couldn’t bring myself to admit that I wanted more time with another girl to see if she was capable of giving me things Marissa wasn’t willing to. So instead of starting a war, I did something I’d never done before. I looked Marissa right in the eyes… and lied.

Derek’s eyes went wide and his grin grew devilish. “Ah, so you finally took my advice, came to your senses, and ditched the bitch?” There was no hiding his feelings toward Marissa.

“Yeah, exactly, smartass, but I’m serious. Why her? Don’t you have enough problems with Marissa? Why complicate your friendship with Marcus and Riley?”

I wouldn’t want you fucking around with her fresh out of a two-year relationship with someone else. It’s not fair to her or you, and when you get your head out from between her legs and go back to Marissa, or realize this isn’t going anywhere, Marcus is going to hand you your balls in a neat little package.”

it’s usually bros before hos, when you fuck with a dude’s sister, your ass is grass.

She knows my situation with Marissa and she has no expectations. It’ll be fine.

I don’t expect anything from him… we’ve talked about this. He’s still got Marissa on the back burner, we get along great, and the sex… well, that one time… was insane.”

“You’re not alone, Riles. You have me.” “I have you for now… until she comes back and realizes what she gave up. I know you love her, Beck. I know you can’t just turn off your feelings for someone. This is all fun and it’s a nice distraction for you, but once she comes to her senses—when she wants you back—where does that leave me?”

It would be easier for me and Riley to get over this now because we hadn’t gotten too involved. But if we took it any further—there’d be no turning back. I had to keep my distance.

“Why didn’t you tell me you were dating Griffin Dennison? Or that you’re still working for him? Let me guess, he doesn’t want the baby so you thought you’d stick it on me like I’m some sucker? Well, I’m not some sucker, Riley and I’m certainly not going to raise some other man’s bastard and marry his whore.”

But ever since Marissa put a snag in my trust in Riley—I hated to admit it, but things were different.

If it were only that easy. I wanted it to be, but my whole attitude about all of this was distorted now. I wished there was a way to get ahold of Griffin. I didn’t want to go behind Riley’s back to check her story, but hearing the truth from the horse’s mouth would set me at ease and make all of this go away.

She called you, she needed you, and you dropped everything to be there for her. You couldn’t have known what was going on over at Tessa’s—I understand that. But now, when I picture it in my head, all I feel is resentment. You should have been with me.

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