Review: Believe

Believe by Shelley Michaels
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

3 ⭐⭐⭐ - OK decent reads.
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Our heroine is cheated on by her husband and kicks him out of the house.
His lover is the secretary and she's a real bitch. Tipical!
She decides she will not accept him back, but wants him to have a relationship with their little girl.
Her husband is a complete asshole and fucked up her life and completely neglects their daughter.
Our hero is wonderful from the start and what would be a fling becomes something much more serious and intense.
I loved she did not accept the cheater back! This is the best thing, in my opinion.
Liked it and recommend it.

My Matt, the love of my life, the boy that stole my heart while we were in our teens, the man that promised me forever.  The only man that had kissed me touched me loved me.

‘Surprise!' I find myself calling out, sarcastically.  My voice sounds alien to my ears.  ‘Hello, Louise.  Fancy finding you here, I see you are taking care of my husband in my absence.'

I laugh, a sound nothing like my usual happy sound.  ‘What the fuck does it look like, Matt?' I marvel. ‘You're fucking your assistant,' I announce, dryly, ‘what else is there?'

‘That makes you feel good, Louise?' I ask, cattily, this time I hear the wobble in my tone.  ‘The notion that you have deprived a baby girl of her daddy? Tell me, do you have daddy issues?' I taunt.  Her smile halts and irritation hits her gaze.

Also, I should face facts. It's time to accept that Matt has moved on and I need to try to do the same. 

He texted me a few days ago, to tell me he was no longer living with his mum and had moved in with his new woman.  Did I want Matt back?  No.

‘Ah, well, these things happen,’ I smile, casually.  ‘If Matt hadn't have been banging the secretary, I wouldn’t have met Kyle here,’

‘I don't give a shit about his bimbo,' I pledge. ‘I care about the environment my daughter visits. I don't even know where she lives and how clean her house is, I should be privy to that, shouldn't I?'

I should be able to trust that the man I share a child with is competent enough to put her needs before his own.  But, I don't.  Not because Matt left me for another woman, but because of the state of him this morning and his obvious impatience with Emmy.

He's never fucked anyone like Shauna.  She's pink and girly and entirely down to earth.  There are no airs and graces, no pretence, she's a single mom who is ultimately in love with her child.

He had grand plans for this brief visit to London, and he was going to meet up with old friends, military and civilians as well as catch up on a few old-flames and reacquaint himself with them temporarily.

‘You end a marriage to go off with almost a teenager, and you chastise me for finally getting myself some fine sex?’

‘Unless you have any intention of moving to the US, Shauna, I can’t see how we can do this, darlin’,’ he confides.  I nod, unable to voice all the what-ifs that are flittering through my mind.

The daughter we were once so desperate to create was now merely a drain on Matt’s time, time away from his new life and, it seems, new wife.

I realised after a discussion with my sister that I can do no more to encourage a relationship between Matt and Emmy.It was the time I started to look after myself in all of this, and this started now.

‘He doesn’t want Emmy either,’ I confess, ‘me, yeah that’s fine, he wasn’t the man I thought he was anyhow, but Emmy?’ I hiccup.  ‘She’s beautiful and full of character, how can he not want to nurture that?’ I question.

‘So, no one knows that you are not only a cheat but a shit dad who walked away from his child without so much as a backwards glance?’ I question, nastily.

‘Let me get this right. You refuse to permit your daughter, the daughter you haven’t seen for four months, as a point scoring exercise.’  I laugh, ‘you left me at home with our new-born baby while you fucked your secretary. You then left me having to sell the only home she has ever known to live in a rabbit hutch.  Oh and then abandon said baby because it doesn’t fit in with your new girlfriend’s plans, and now you stand in front of me denying me a happy ending as if all this is my fault.  What the fuck happened to you, Matt?’

‘Don’t you trust your husband, Louise,’ I tease, ‘yeah, no I wouldn’t if I was you, either.  There are bitches about that love the chase of a married man,’ I smile, cattily.

‘I’m trying here, Shauna,’ he feels irritations swirling amongst the regret in his core.  ‘Course you are,’ she taunts.  ‘It’s funny how this newfound remorse has surfaced the moment you know you are fucked!’

‘Are you fucking kidding me right now?’ Shauna spits, her eyes lighting with anger. ‘You didn’t lose us, Matt, you threw us to the kerb and kicked us in the process,’ she shouts.

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‘You can be as sorry as you like, I will never forgive you.’ She murmurs.

Regret surges through his veins. Shauna used to look at him like that, and he knows she would never have strayed.  ‘I’ve been an arse, Shauna, but if you ever need anything, either of you, will you ask?’ He tests.

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